Loss

Man..I didnt even get to the finals in the BET hot 16 contest..sometimes i wonder should i just stop. Never in my life had i ever won anything. I wonder how it feels to win..smh I guess Ill know someday..things like this make me feel like giving up, its so hard coming from a hole in the wall city with no music lanes...sometimes i feel like ill never b discovered, i have no money to make any type of power moves @ all so, i'm at a dead end, i have no one to help me promote my music or anything. I'm in this ALONE.It sucks so bad cuz i know tons of ppl, but the struggle is so bad out here, they can't even help themselves let alone help me out. idk my heart is still in this but my mind and my pockets screaming,' rob a niga"..smh, ive been doing this for over 15 years straight up, and gotten nowhere. one time I SUPPOSEDLY had a deal on the table...was that my only chance? seems like it...life is a bitch, why does it have to b that way..how does other ppl get so blessed? Im never the one to hate but this shit makes me so angry because i really love my craft..im not just doing anything with my music..but its ppl that have record deals and arent talking about shit. idk maybe they was right about me   www.nevergonnamakeit.com